My Life's Purpose

I believe that remarkably few people in this world know what their hearts and souls most yearn for in life, and even fewer have learned how to fully pursue their deepest desires.  This is a fantastic thing!  It means that most people are sitting on an explosive opportunity for growth and fulfillment, which they just need to discover and take advantage of.  One of the greatest joys in my life today is my opportunity to help people learn how to use the nuclear-powered tools that they have already paid for, but which are sitting unopened in their garage, collecting dust because people aren't yet willing to read the owners' manuals.

Among the embarrassment of riches I have been gifted with, one of the things I am most grateful for is how deafeningly loud the voices of my heart and spirit have been throughout my life.  While many people talk about listening for a "still, small voice", my deepest voices play polo through the green fields of my mind, happily smacking me upside the head with a mallet -- repeatedly! -- until I pay attention.  While my understanding of my purpose has regularly and dramatically changed over the last two decades, in line with the dizzying twists and hairpin turns of my path so far, I have never been without my personal herd of thundering, mallet-mad destiny jockeys, with their fire-shod horses lovingly scorching a path for me to follow.

The Purpose Of My Life is To Joyfully and Playfully Become Who I AM While Sharing and Teaching Love

If you look at my values, you will notice that my top four values fully embody this purpose.  I am here to discover and awaken to the infinite love and light that is my essence.  I am here to give and receive love with everyone and everything.  I am here to en-joy my life, dancing and playing all the way home.  I am here to teach others how to do the same.  Wow!  Just writing that makes my heart sing!

The Power Of Integrity

My fifth value -- which is my single most powerful tool for fulfilling my purpose -- is integrity and integration.  While many people associate integrity with following a particular, socially constructed moral code, I believe there is a deeper cut possible.  To me, integrity means knowing what I most want, and then aligning my investments of time, money, commitment, and energy so that they are in congruence with these values and goals.  

Integrity.  1.  Consistently living and acting in accordance with my highest values and goals.

While I didn't realize until recently that what I had been judging as selfishness was really something deeper, I have been ferociously practicing integrity since I was 15, when in the midst of one of the violent storms of insecurity and unworthiness which pass through most teenagers' lives, I hunkered down on a canary yellow beanbag with a maroon, spiral bound notebook, and wrote out a list of the things I needed to do and become in order to get the love and respect (and sex!) I so craved.  I built a rocket to get me where I wanted to go, and I filled it with every fuel I had.  I loaded it up with my strengths, my fears, my pain, my faith, my passion -- it all got poured in the tank.  I had been blessed with a truly remarkable amount of fuel -- mountains of love, oceans of pain, and a far, distant horizon of unsatisfied desires -- so that when I lit the fuse, it took off like a blazing comet, streaking across the night sky.  As I clung on for dear life, my journey took on a life of its own, propelling me through four lifetimes -- from devoutly Mormon child, through insecure atheist engineer, to independent self-reliant entrepreneur, and now in to my fledging life as a Spirit-led teacher and servant leader -- in 20 intense, fully lived years.  While my body is still recovering from the battering and burnout, my comet-straddling soul is laughing and singing at the top of its lungs as we streak in to each new dawn with a heart full of joy.

Copyright © 2005 Brian Whetten
Last modified: 04/21/05